tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42529860127216721152024-03-21T19:38:03.329-07:00perfectly imperfect :)when the all around me felt like sinking sand, i know where i should run to :D ~~ P/S : please don't judge my english,especially on the grammar. i'm not trying to make essays, i'm just writing entries to be shared. tankss ;ppVeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-55518877629501798322012-06-11T00:37:00.002-07:002012-06-11T00:37:44.919-07:00Remember Me Once Morebestlah tengok orang ada abang :)) terasa safe di situ. rasa macam ada orang jaga...memang lah ada kakak pun kena jaga juga.. hihi..kena ka ? mcm ndak jak.. ;p tapiii, berbeza bila kita sebagai adik dijaga oleh abang berbanding jika kita dijaga oleh kakak :)<br />
<br />
hahahaksss !! aku selalu jeles bila kawan-kawan aku ada abang..dan soalan wajib yang aku memang akan tanya is, ABANG KAU HENSEM KA ???? hahahahahaha ;p soalan getekkk didahulukan, soalan penting belakang2 dulu. hahaha. memang lah aku ada abang sepupu, tapi berbeza lah dengan abang sendiri kan ?? hahaha...yang aku nii tiba-tiba cer pasal abang kenapa pula ? cubalah cerita pasal boyfren ka...eh eh ? ada ka ? hahha...peminat pun tarak~ haha... teda lah apa-apa pun.. c madu gelak-gelak bila dia bet'tweet'2 dengan abang dia ja yang buat aku rasa best ada abang.. ;p or maybe, dengan ayat yang lebih tepat, kalau abang aku masih ada :')<br />
<br />
Samalie Danial Steven ! panjang gila kan nama dia ?? hihihi... ni lah abang aku~ i mean, my late brother. He died if i'm not mistaken in the year 1997, lemas. hihi. budak-budak~ nakal lah tu. walaupun umur aku waktu tu baru 5 tahun, but i barely remember he is the one who selalu buatkan aku susu botol. hahahaha. dia sayang aku, aku tahu..tengok gambar-gambar lama dalam album lama pun, aku tengok dia selalu jak peluk aku~ wahhh~~ hahaha...ada aku ternampak satu gambar ni... waktu tu aku, abang, kakak dengan nenek sedang makan atas tikar..hahaha..guess what, aku makan bertabur nasi..entah makan entah main nasi..and aku tengok abang tengah melayan karenah aku..hahaha ;p dia boleh jadi bapa yang baik kot kalau sekarang ni dia masih hidup :DDD... thank you mommy for that pictures, at least aku tahu waktu baby aku sangat comel.. hahaha..eh eh..bukan bukan..haha.. at least i know i used to have a brother that love me tenderly :p hahaha. aku selalu ingat that one thing yang selalu buat aku nangis..bila dia cakap ' susu si Vera campur susu si *Bake satu siap !! ' and mummy selalu marah abang kalau cakap macam tu..sebab xmau aku nangis lettew... oh ya, *Bake is anjing yang abang bela waktu tu. haha..sapa lah yang tak nangis kalau susu tu betul2 kena campur dengan susu si Bake betul-betul ? hahaha<br />
<br />
that year 1997, end it all. aku sangat-sangat ingat waktu tu, waktu mau ptg suda kali arr, waktu tu aku ajak nenek main dekat opis nurse mummy, tiba-tiba suami kawan mummy datang, buat muka cemas and nampak mummy nangis terus keluar dari pejabat. oh aku mana lah faham apa-apa waktu tu..aku cuma ingat kejadian jak. hihihi..aku dengar mummy cakap murut dengan nenek, pastu nenek pun nangis,kawan mummy pun nangis..hhmmmmm~ aku pun ikut nangis..hahahahha..nangis sebab takut kot semua orang pun mau nangis waktu tu..hahahahaha...aku tengok ramai jak orang di sungai..orang kampung dari kampung mummy and daddy semua datang, siap ada yang menyelam lagi~~ kuak lentang pun ado~ haha eh eh ? =..= aku tengok kakak waktu pun nangis waktu tu..nampaknya, aku jak lah paling steady waktu tu..hahahaha ;p ok, x lucu pun~~<br />
<br />
lepas 3 hari berkampung tepi sungai, baru lah aku faham apa yang berlaku... patutlah aku cari abang waktu tu dia tiada :'( aku masih sangat-sangat ingat, when his body brought to the hall, barulah aku sedar he's gone forever. he was still young that time. mummy said, if i'm not mistaken, he was 12. ya lah..ajal maut mana kita tahu bila datang. kalau sudah ajal, sekarang pun kita boleh mati.... kan ? :) yang pastinya adalah, bersedia kah tidak kita menghadapi kematian yang tidak diduga itu ?? ehh, tersimpang jap.. hihi<br />
<br />
. Dulu aku waktu kecik-kecik, aku tanya dengan Tuhan, kenapa bagi aku abang sekejap saja ?? kenapa kazen aku boleh ada 5- 6 orang abang sedangkan aku ada 1 jak ? itupun Tuhan sudah ambil balik... tapi bila sudah besar, aku tidak lagi tanya Tuhan dengan soalan sebegitu, kerana rencana Tuhan siapa yang tahu ?? things happen for reasons..yup, waiting the reason to come is something like waiting for kucing bertanduk and could hurt us even more..but who knows maybe, just maybe...you don't even realize that the reason is actually happening... :) erkkk~ ayat aku ni, bole buang tong sampah. hahaha.... it's been about 13 years since he been gone. kalau abang masih hidup sekarang pun, mesti suda kahwin. hahaha. maybe i could have nieces or maybe nephews..but it's okay, i could wait for that kids from my sister..later. :))<br />
<br />
tiba-tiba rasa sedih pulak.. :p tapi xpala, Tuhan lagi sayang dia.... if only you know abang, you have to brothers now :)) JJ and Faru.. dulu aku paling bongsu kan ? sekarang ada lagi yang lebih manja..haha..pakai handphone padahal baru darjah 2.. dulu aku darjah 2, aku berebut crayon sama kakak sebab berlumba mau warna buku warna sailormoon. hahaha.. a lot things happen in 13 years bro..but still you are remembered in our heart forever. we love you forever.. even my future husband can't replace in you.. :)<br />
<br />
Rest In Peace, beloved son and brother, Samalie Danial Steven.<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="http://i1093.photobucket.com/albums/i428/Hmong_swagg14/NevrAlone.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i1093.photobucket.com/albums/i428/Hmong_swagg14/NevrAlone.png" /></a></div>
<br />
<br />VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-81284414006465563032012-06-10T11:44:00.000-07:002012-06-10T11:45:23.766-07:00The Greatest Gift ;Dtet tet tet.. 1.30 am. aku sepatutnya study bha nii...tapi kan, kalau sakit malas suda menyerang, siapa dapat halang ?? aku pun ndak dapat halang. hahahahahaha. erkkk... c madu tersinta, Anis Farahin bilang blog aku jiwang.. hahahahahha ( termalu kejap) well sweety of mine, jiwang is actually part of me, but aku jarang bagi tunjuk..sebabb~~ i'm a happy go comell punya orang. hahaha... eh eh..maluu~ hahahaha ;p sambil-sambil stress dengar lagu korea dari meja sebelah ni, biarlah aku bertenang seketika sambil update blog. hahahahha....ermm, malas bha mau update blog ni, sebab bukan hobi pun, tapi best jak update blog ni, boleh mengukuhkan bahasa pasar..hahaha..aku selalu ingat jak apa yang berlaku dalam kehidupan harian ku. hahaha..ok yang ni tipu. mwehehehe....<br />
<br />
less than 1 month, exam lah aku ni. 4.00 ni sem..bulih ?? bulih lah kali ar...aku pun kurang pasti.. hehe..tengok jak perangai yang ndak study ni..hihihi...errmmm...bersakap pasal pointer ni, kita selalu cakap yang ni lah hadiah bermakna untuk parents kita, dapat pointer tinggi-tinggi time matrik ka, diploma ka, time degree ka time apa-apa lah...or maybe getting straight A's dalam spm maupun pmr, hehe..selalu kita akan cakap juga tu, " ni lah hadiah bermakna untuk parents"... betulah bha...sapa cakap salah ? aku pun mengiyakan juga kata-kata tu..betul lah..aku kalau tak dapat pointer tinggi-tinggi pun, ready telinga sebelum kena cuci 7 hari 7 malam. hohoho.... tapiiiiii....bagiku, masih ada hadiah yang lebih bermakna untuk parents ^____________^ bukan setakat pointer atau emas 1 tan atau hadiah yang mahal-mahal...tapi DIRI kita. sejak kita dilahirkan lagi parents sudah anggap kita adalah hadiah terbesar bagi mereka, tidak kisah lah anak keberapa pun....sebab bagi parents itu, anak itu kan sau ANUGERAH :) ( ayat kegemaran buat masa ini ) hihihihi . yup yup...sejak dari kecil ayah dan ibu jaga kita, dengan penuh 'tatih tayang'..tapi kenapa ramai ja anak-anak sekarang, terutama remaja.. ( tidak semua) membalas dengan tuba ?? merosakkan diri, menghancurkan hati ibu bapa dengan sikap dan kelakuan kita ? di manakah silapnya ? adakah silap ibu mengandung atau silap ayah yang bagi ibu mengandung ?? eh eh =..= maaf~maaf... hahaha :p...... hakikatnya, salah sendiri sebenarnya. Tepuk dada, tanya lah selera, makan apa malam ni? kfc ka mekdi ? hahaha. eh ? =.=<br />
<br />
bagi parents 4.00 or maybe 10A+ is just not enough if still have these bad attitudes. apa guna 4.00 flat tapi ada bad attitude ?? hahaha..berbelit-belit..apa yang aku mau sampaikan sebenarnya ialah, THE GREATES GIFT FROM US TO OUR PARENTS IS, BE A GOOD GIRL :) [kalau kamu lelaki, jadi lah good boy..jangan jadi pundan...dorng bilang lah. hahaha]... ya la, aku akui, aku pun belum cukup baik untuk menjadi anak yang baik tapi aku sedang berusah untuk menjadi baik. ^_____^ i used to be a bad girl, tapi bad girl yang bermaruah lah. hahahahaha...and yup, i regret it~ everything all i've done in my past, i regret it to the fullest .-_______-.<br />
<br />
Aku bersyukur Tuhan masih bagi aku peluang untuk berfikir dengan waras, bagi aku peluang untuk bertenang seketika, mengimbau segala kenangan-kenangan yang aku ingat balik sekarang pun~~ ouch ! sangat memalukan negara...the suddenly it came across to my mind, what if my parents know bout this ? kalau aku jadi parents pun, aku malu ada anak macam aku dulu...ishhh, nda la bha teruk sangat apa yang aku buat tu, tapi aku malu...hahahahah....tapi aku tahu Tuhan sayang aku, sebelum aku terjatuh lebih jauh dalam keseronokan yang entah seronok kah tidak, Dia bentuk semula hati aku untuk berubah :') aku selalu cakap, dalam dunia ni, ada 2 jenis perubahan yang manusia boleh buat, antara dari jahat jadi yang baik ataupun baik dari jahat. kan ? dan aku sedang dalam proses merubah menjadi yang baik :))) biarlah orang bilang hidup aku boring, tiada hiburan..tapi ternyata aku lebih tenang macam ni dan aku tahu lah mana mau cari hiburan untuk aku. hahaha. banyak jak..plus banyak kawan aku yang boleh buat aku ketawa :D <br />
<br />
yup. i like the way i am now. more peaceful, more loveable and more cute. eh eh ?? telabih suda.. hahaha..my laugh become more sincere, become more matures....and i like the way i am now. hihihihi... tapi...apa yang penting adalah....ini lah hadiah terbesar dari aku untuk mummy and daddy. it don't have to be tonne of gold, ocean of money... but it is just a simple 'new me' which i think is..priceless...chewahhh~~~ hahaha...sebenarnya tu jak yang ingin aku sampaikan...hahaha...as for me myself, i got my own price by being a 'good girl', a peaceful life with awesome friends around me :'D lesson of life that i've learnt, i don't have to lose my self-respect ( which i still actually have) just blend in with society... : D<br />
<br />
eh, 2.30 am suda..sejam pulak di sini..roomate pun sudah tidor, lagu korea yang membingitkan telinga lagi menyakitkan hati pun sudah berhenti..adalah baiknya aku sambung study..bilang 4.00 flat, hadiah sampingan lettew untuk parents. hahaha :D i hope akan lebih banyak mereka-mereka di luar sana yang sedar apakah hadiah terbesar itu. mwehehehe ;D merepek suda ni dan aku harap tidak lah lari tajuk~ haha<br />
<br />
God Bless ;)VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-76544799940649063422012-05-26T22:21:00.002-07:002012-05-26T22:21:31.946-07:00saat aku jatuh cinta :)" kaulah satu tulang dari tulangku..yang ku impikan selama hidupku..tuk bersanding dengan mu.." lirik lagu perkahwinan Kita Satu. :)<br />
aku selalu berdoa, Tuhan akan memberikan aku pasangan hidup yang baik, yang takut akan Tuhan dan aku juga berfikir, adakah bakal suamiku juga berdoa meminta kepada Tuhan untuk depertemukan dengan aku ?<br />
pernah aku terfikir..bagaimana aku boleh mengetahui bahawa orang itulah, lelaki itulah yang telag ditetapkan Tuhan sebagai pedamping hidupku ? sebagai lelaki yang selama ini kuimpikan? lelaki yang selama ini aku minta dalam doaku ? tulang dari tulangku ? bagaimana kalau salah ? bagaimana kalau bukan itu yang telah Tuhan tetapkan ? akhirnya aku berfikir...jangan risau..Tuhan punya cara ^_____^<br />
aku berdoa supaya hatiku ditetapkan...aku berdoa agar aku tidak tersasar dari rencana Tuhan. kerana kau tahu Tuhan sudah menyediakan yang terbaik buat anak-anak yang setia kepadaNya. aku berdoa agar aku tidak tersilap langkah dalam kehidupan ku. aku berdoa aku kakiku tidak tersandung dalam kehidupan sehingga aku jatuh tergeletak hanya kerana cinta di dunia. biarlah Tuhan yang menentukan cerita cintaku, biar dengan cerita cintaku aku dapat memuji dan memuliakan Tuhan.<br />
Tuhan tahu apa yang ada dalam hatiku...dia tahu saat aku terluka, dia tahu saat aku gembira, dia tahu saat aku memerlukan. dia tahu segala sesuatu dalam diriku. Tuhan tahu akan kekuranganku, maka Dia sediakan segala sesuatu bagi mencukupkan aku. apa saja yang tidak Tuhan lakukan buatku? mati saja dia sudah lakukan untukku dan anda semua..kerana cinta dan kasihnya yang tidak berbelah bahagi.<br />
biarlah hidupku terus ada dalam rencana Tuhan. biarlah pasangan hidupku Tuhan yang tentukan sebab dia tahu apa yang terbaik bagiku...walau banyak kekecewaan yang aku alami, aku tahu aku pasti dikuatkan.. ^______^ bukan kerana kekuatan yang berasal dari diriku sendiri..tapi dari Tuhan yang aku andalkan sentiasa.<br />
biarlah aku menjaga kesucian diriku sampai aku bertemu orang yang benar-benar berhak ke atas aku. aku tahu, bila waktunya tiba, apa yang ada dalam dunia ini yang dapat menghalang ? biarlah aku menjadi selalu ingat, bahawa pekerjaan Tuhan itu selalu indah pada waktunya. disaat kita meminta seekor rama-rama yang cantik, Tuhan berikan kita seekor ulat yang gemuk lagi buruk. disaat kita meminta sekuntum bunga mawar, Tuhan berikan kita pohon kaktus yang berduri....tapi tahulah kita, bila tiba waktunya, ulat yang gemuk dan pendek akan menjadi seekor rama-rama yang cantik, kaktus berduri akan memberikan bunga yang cantik..begitulah indahnya pekerjaan Tuhan...di saat aku meminta pasangan hidup, Dia benarkan aku jatuh cinta dan kecewa, bukan kerana dia tidak mengasihi aku..namun kerana Dia ingin aku benar-benar mengerti apa itu cinta sebelum aku benar-benar boleh mencintai orang sudah dia sediakan bagiku. ^_________^<br />
begitu juga dengan saudara dan saudari. bertekunlah dalam berdoa dan bersukitalah dalam pengharapan..kerana janji-janji Tuhan ada buat kita,,untuk menyediakan yang terbaik buat kita..<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
<a href="http://i413.photobucket.com/albums/pp215/ylva51/marriage/beautiful_wedding_photography_by_ivan_posuh.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="212" src="http://i413.photobucket.com/albums/pp215/ylva51/marriage/beautiful_wedding_photography_by_ivan_posuh.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>
<br />
<br />
Be blessed. God loves us all. VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-30086173736326689352012-04-30T10:18:00.000-07:002012-04-30T10:18:01.447-07:00kerana wanita.........' Perempuan liar sesuai dijadikan girlfriend, perempuan baik sesuai dijadikan isteri'... hmmm. betul. statement ni betul.. semua lelaki pasti berfikiran macam ni kan ? semua lelaki mesti lah mau yang terbaikk. yup. perempuan pun sama juga :) pendek kata, semua yang hidup atas muka bumi mau yang terbaik untuk hidup dan masa hadapan. hmmmm.<br />
<br />Aku secara tak sengaja nampaklahh tweet someone pasal perempuan yang liar ni boleh jadi girlfriend jak, yang baik boleh jadi isteri jak.. betul la bha kan apa yang dia cakp ? hahaha, aku jak ni mungkin yang critical thinking sangat. bukan.... manusia boleh berubah. tidak selamanya yang liar tu akan jadi liar...tidak semestinya pula yang baik itu menjadi liar...kan? tidak. tapi dalam dunia ni, 2 jenis manusia boleh berubah....first is when people change from good to bad or otherwise.<br />
<br />
Kalaulah... perempuan yang liar tu...ambiklah contoh, lelaki ni kapel dgn perempuan ni, then buat apa jak yang dia suka dengan perempuan ni... tapi dia tidak berniat pun mau kawin dengan perempuan tu...malah sudah pun tanam niat mau cari perempuan yang baik, yang tak sosial sangat tapi dalam masa yang sama dia merosakkan perempuan liarrrrrrrrrr tadi.. hmm,, bukankah dia sama dengan jak dengan perosak ?? kenapa perlu merosakkan perempuan tu kalau tak berniat pun mau kawin dengan wanita tersebut ? ergh. perempuan macam kasar sangat pula, wanita lah bagus sikit. hahaha.<br />
<br />
wahai kaum lelaki..jangan lah jadikan wanita itu sebagai mainan... perempuan yang liar pun boleh berubah menjadi seorang perempuan yang baik. malahan lebih baik dari yang paling baik. faham ? hahaha... baik dri antara yang paling baik...mungkin wanita itu sudah tidak suci lagi, tapi siapa lah dalam dunia ni yang tidak melakukan kesilapan dalam memilih jalan hidupnya ? tapi apabila silap memilih, tidak selamanya mereka harus hidup dalam kegelapan hidup mereka... selalu ada jalan keluar... siapa tahu saudara-saudara sekalian yang boleh menarik perempuan -perempuan liar ni keluar dari jalan hidup mereka yang gelap ?? jadi wahai kaum Adam, berhentilah dari mendrikiminasikan ( sorry, ndak taw eja bha aku ) perempuan-perempuan liar ini dri menjadikan mereka isteri. mereka juga wanita, juga manusia, yang bukan boneka yang boleh dipermainkan... mereka boleh berubah.... hihi ;)<br />
<br />
err..aku ndak tau bha apa aku merepek ni..,mungkin aku x dapat ungkapkan apa yang sedang aku pikir dalam otak aku ni dengan kata-kata...tapi i hope u olss understand...... dont ever say perempuan liar jadi girlfriendm yang baik jadi isteri...mmg betulah haa..sapa kata salah,,,tapi,yang liar juga boleh berubah menjadi isteri yang baik jika saudara-saudara menuntun mereka..... kalau juga pun, saudara-saudara adalah antara jejaka yang dulunya pernah merosakkan perempuan-perempuan yg mmg sudah sedia liar, apa kiranya perasaan isteri saudara-saudara kalau dia tawww ?? ah ah ah ? hahahha. think ! aku bingung by my own words :)<br />
<br />
God bless :)VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-8740998923758979122011-12-16T21:41:00.000-08:002011-12-16T21:41:02.010-08:00have you ever ?have you ever loved somebody so much.... and it makes you cry ?<br />
<br />
have you ever needed something so bad and you can't sleep at night ?<br />
<br />
have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right ?<br />
<br />
have you ever ? :))<br />
<br />
have you ever been in love so bad, you'd do anything to make them understand ?<br />
<br />
have you ever had someone steal your heart away ?? :) and you'd give anything to make them feel the same ~<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i851.photobucket.com/albums/ab72/Vinoad/Love/Vk241.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i851.photobucket.com/albums/ab72/Vinoad/Love/Vk241.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<br />
have you ever searched the words to get you in their heart ?<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i381.photobucket.com/albums/oo251/TristaLanePritchard/morethenyou.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="http://i381.photobucket.com/albums/oo251/TristaLanePritchard/morethenyou.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<br />
but you don't know what to say and where to start -,-<br />
<br />
have you ever found the one you dreamed all your life ??<br />
<br />
you'd do just about anything to look into their eyes <3<br />
<br />
have you finally found the one ? :)<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i1082.photobucket.com/albums/j375/goldie20101/imagesCAOHVHI3.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i1082.photobucket.com/albums/j375/goldie20101/imagesCAOHVHI3.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<br />
have you ever given your heart to someone only to find that they won't give their heart to you ? :'(<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i520.photobucket.com/albums/w328/wendy1o1o/lovedoesntdemandtoloveback.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="305" src="http://i520.photobucket.com/albums/w328/wendy1o1o/lovedoesntdemandtoloveback.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<br />
have you ever ?<br />
<br />
have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there ??<br />
<br />
have you ?<br />
<br />
while all you can do is wait.....for the day that they will care.. :(<br />
<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i0006.photobucket.com/albums/0006/findstuff22/Best%20Images/Love/hugs2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i0006.photobucket.com/albums/0006/findstuff22/Best%20Images/Love/hugs2.jpg" /></a></div><br />
<div><br />
</div><div><br />
</div><div><br />
</div><div><br />
</div><div><span style="font-size: x-small;">credits for the lyrics :)))</span></div><div><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div><span style="font-size: x-small;">westlife - have you ever</span></div>VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-57125163391501850002011-12-15T08:59:00.000-08:002011-12-15T08:59:50.708-08:00exam ? senang ja bha tu :DDomg ! time flies.. yupp ! i don't even realize that i almost done my first semester in university ! yayy ~ haha ( baru part one lahhh ). and now.. :(( the saddest part is, it's 2 weeks only before exam and i haven't ready anthing yett.. oh my.. this is so pathetic T_T ~~<br />
<br />
well, i dun come here to fail by the wayy..but ~~~~ arghhh !!!!!! oh my God, i feel like crying now.. God, i'm so scaredd.. huhu.. i remember that dayy when all my mood fly away ~ i can't even smile or laugh..and it all because this exam. i just so scareddd ~~ huhu.. wait. tau takut, but still juga malas mau study... arghh,,why can't I be like anybody else ?? yang rajin-rajin yuee ?? huhu<br />
<br />
i don't want banana fruit 2 times ( HAHAHAHA). yeahh~ i mean, i don't want to repeat my mistakes..like what i've done in my matriculation time. i screwed it all away..especially during 1st sem. huhu.. i got the chance, but then blow it away just like thattt ~~<br />
<br />
i know, it time now for me to add oil ! chayok-chayok ! i know i can do it ! yeahh..mind-set bebyy ~~ yup.. JANGAN TAKUT, PERCAYA SAJAAA :)) yeahh ! i love my God. i know He'll always there for me. :) now i will just do my best to study whatever it is, and let my God do the rest. i remember He said in the Bible, " Jangan takut, sebab Aku ini Allah mu ".. Yes Lord, i shall not afraid, for You are there for me.. amen. I can do this. yeahh ~ percaya saja. :))<br />
<br />
to mum && dad, i promise i won't let both of you down this time. i'll make you proud :)<br />
<br />
to me, pleasee..study hard + smart :) okay.<br />
<br />
to f.love, goodluck :)<br />
<br />
to God, I LOVE YOU more than anything <3<br />
<br />
aim : Dean Award. amen ;pVeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-5236357286764281762011-12-15T08:37:00.000-08:002011-12-15T08:37:22.774-08:00when you're gone...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjf-A42JlWtPeQEy96SSWBy59wAzZK2fk85kjoFlRvOiFkTeXcd2eiMauc9t8bV5_wRZV5TAZDPMILM20JG2J5bEYzJDzJ0Eil7LJ9SZkChmiYQNcIytuuXUZVdZs7m-Q-0EonRSSjQkp3e/s1600/DSC05819.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjf-A42JlWtPeQEy96SSWBy59wAzZK2fk85kjoFlRvOiFkTeXcd2eiMauc9t8bV5_wRZV5TAZDPMILM20JG2J5bEYzJDzJ0Eil7LJ9SZkChmiYQNcIytuuXUZVdZs7m-Q-0EonRSSjQkp3e/s320/DSC05819.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
here's my aki. My beloved aki :)) it's been 13 days now since he passed away. yupp.. i still miss him . yupp. deeply missing him. my tears still won't stop :'( it was 30th of November when i was in the bank with my friends when i got phone call from my Mummy. i was so excited about the phone call because i thought i was about the money that I've requested. hehehe :)) but all of sudden, my tears burst as i've been told that Aki has gone... after suffer for a long time with his illness. i was so sad. regretting the days when i was not there to look after him... i remember he said, before i registered into university, i was eating in front of him, with my cousins.. he looked us, and says, " if i die, don't leave me. stay beside me until the day you bury me, " then my grandma tease him by saying, ' nope, we will just throw your body into the river and let the crocodiles eat you," hahaha :'D we follow her by laughing. then with blurryy face, my Aki said, ' Haina' - <i>a murutians languange</i> ... hahaha.. it was so funny that time. goshhh.. :'(.. how i miss the smile of my Aki... 9.45 p.m,November,30th, i got up from my chair ready for boarding. i got into the que, grabbing some kit kat nugget from my backpack, filling my empty stomach. hmmm. only God knows how i can't wait to reach Sabah. huhuhu.. 1.00 a.m, we arrived KKIA, and my dad directly drive to Tenom. 5.00 a.m sharp, we arrived at my village... i got into the house, i saw a coffin, covered with blanket. as i walk approaching the coffin, my cousin opened the cover... my God, i can't help my feeling. i burst into tears. i can't believe, my Aki, that one time, always tells a bedtime story to me, gives me money to buy ice-cream..now lying inside the coffin, pale and cold. :'((( i cried till my heart contented.... until i fall asleep beside his coffin. i saw my cousins were sleeping beside him too. just as his wish.. except for my sister. she was in Sarawak that time.. time goes by.. i looked at the clock, it was 3 p.m.. i saw my uncles and some villager standing, like the are ready to lift the coffin.. i know it's the time for burial.. i can feel my tears falling down from my eyes. i know it was the last chance too see my Aki's face.. i saw my grandmother hugs the coffin. she cried out loud.. i know how she felt... 5 p.m, the burial ceremony ended.. we got back to home.. everyone shed their tears..hah. even they wipe their tears away, i know, their heart still full with sorrow :((<br />
<br />
Aki, you will be missed. we'll never forget you. I know, we all will meet again :)) You're in a better place now,,free from the illness you suffered in this world. Rest In Peace, beloved Aki Lunam...<br />
<br />
God, forgive him for all the he'd done. Make him stay with you. in the name of Jesus, amen.. -.-VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-75694474689956952522011-05-25T03:53:00.000-07:002011-05-25T03:53:15.048-07:00T R U S T<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://i236.photobucket.com/albums/ff287/LCsanangel/Decorated%20images/trust.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="239" src="http://i236.photobucket.com/albums/ff287/LCsanangel/Decorated%20images/trust.jpg" width="320" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><b><strike>trust</strike></b></td></tr>
</tbody></table><br />
<br />
God talk to me......<br />
<br />
" I've been watching you closely up from <b>heaven, </b> see the dark clouds hanging above your head.. As the enemies and vultures closed behind you.. you feel you've <u>LOST</u>.. <b>with nowhere left to go..</b> But I've promised that I would never leave you.. though my timing's hard for you to comprehend.. but do you <b>TRUST</b> Me ? and know that I'm there..? to see you through... right until the end ...?? "<br />
<br />
<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://i108.photobucket.com/albums/n31/dibbera/Christian%20Images/thbabypray.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://i108.photobucket.com/albums/n31/dibbera/Christian%20Images/thbabypray.jpg" width="157" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Let your HOPE be made known to God in your prayer</td></tr>
</tbody></table><br />
&& I<b> pray.</b>...<br />
<br />
" <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">For so many days and nights I've <u>prayed</u> to Heaven, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">While the enemies were waiting for my fall....</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">When all around me felt like sinking sand, </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">No place to stand, with only <b>Your</b> name I can call... </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">Now I know my faith in You is being shaken..</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">And I'm not afraid to say that I am scared.<b>.</b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><b>But I do know You're true to all Your words.. </b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><u>You are my God and I know that You'll be there</u>... "</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">I still believe in miracles.... that you'll be part of the sea and save my day... Yes God,, i still believe in miracles.. and knows that You are always there for me.....</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i628.photobucket.com/albums/uu2/LivingForHisGlory/PREVIOUSLY%20DECORATED%20IMAGES%20WITH%20BIBLE%20VERSES/87c6593c-1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="191" src="http://i628.photobucket.com/albums/uu2/LivingForHisGlory/PREVIOUSLY%20DECORATED%20IMAGES%20WITH%20BIBLE%20VERSES/87c6593c-1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span><br />
<div style="text-align: right;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: x-small;">l</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana, arial; font-size: xx-small;"><b><i>yrics of ' i still believe in miracles' sang by Sidney Mohede... Be BLESSED !</i></b></span></div>VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-32229470664674461632011-05-20T20:18:00.000-07:002011-05-20T20:18:02.584-07:00DIET ?<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://i217.photobucket.com/albums/cc226/Alienshadow/Icons%20and%20Images/fat.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i217.photobucket.com/albums/cc226/Alienshadow/Icons%20and%20Images/fat.jpg" width="241" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">nightmare.</td><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"> </td></tr>
</tbody></table><br />
GEMUK ? arghhhhhh. It's a nightmare right ? <i><b>YES</b></i> it is ! Fat is everywhere. Bertaburan sana sini. Hmm..Hilang semua confident. Mau beli baju pun susah kan ?? yeapp ! Everyone AFRAID of fat ass ! even me too. But I'm one of the victim now. I'm <u><b>FAT</b></u>. My weight is 6* Kg now. opssss ! secrettt.. hehe. Tapi it's okay. Saya boleh <b>DIET</b> mahh ! hehe. Here some tips.... tips on how am I going to carry my plan on my diet. haha :D. sharing is caring (:<br />
<br />
<div style="text-align: center;">The <b><strike>FIRST</strike></b> thing is...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://i299.photobucket.com/albums/mm295/tradingjane/EVERYTHING%20ELSE/2008-01-04-1348-35.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i299.photobucket.com/albums/mm295/tradingjane/EVERYTHING%20ELSE/2008-01-04-1348-35.jpg" width="230" /></a> </div><div style="text-align: left;"> </div><div style="text-align: left;"> </div><div style="text-align: left;"> </div><div style="text-align: left;"><b>SET </b>in mind that you are on diet ! hehe. You may write on o piece of plain A4 paper...ouh, and it have to be <i>WHITE</i> paper. only white paper. Write on the paper four letter <b><u>D I E T</u></b> with <i><b>black ink</b></i>. Only black ink okay. hehe.. other colours is forbidden (: . Paster it on your bedroom wall. hehe.. Everytime you see this thing on your wall, you will know tthat you are on diet... and you will feel guilty if eat ! hehe.. Try it. hehe. The power of mindset. Hehe..</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><b>NEXT........</b></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i488.photobucket.com/albums/rr248/Ices_Angel_MIS/diet-main_Full.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="213" src="http://i488.photobucket.com/albums/rr248/Ices_Angel_MIS/diet-main_Full.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Eat <b>fruits</b> instead of rice, mee, meat or bla bla bla that high in calories. ! This is the important part. hahaha! what's the point of dieting if you keep on eat those thing ? haha. come on ! yeap.. mula-mula memang la susah.. Tapi kalau cuba untuk tahan itu<b><u> nafsu</u></b>. boleh bah tuu ! hehe... bah, kalau tidaj tahan juga mau makan buah saja tiap hari, let's find alternative wayy. hehe. okay, we still cut RICE from the list. totally forbidden. hehe. We can try mixed vegetables soup. It's only soup but still delicous thou. hehe.. orr... add some vercimille in the soup. is it vercimille ? or what we called it? <b>SUHUN</b> ? yes..that's it.. put some suhun in your soup and some mixed fish cake or fish ball. remember.. <b>MODERATION</b> is the<i><b> key</b></i>. hehe (:. jangan la simpan banyak-banyak kan.. sama juga tu nanti. hehe... See ! diet won't be a boring habit anymore, but healthy and yummy ! hehe..</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk1/Sandyrn6/Humor/Diet_Broccoli.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk1/Sandyrn6/Humor/Diet_Broccoli.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><i><b>Proceed....</b></i></div><div style="text-align: left;"> </div> Be concern on how many calories you consume in a day... a pack of maggie have approximately 400kcal for 1 meal. hmmm..that's is quite a lot. hehe...so, avoid it from now ! hehehe.. Make sure, when you want to buy food, or junk food, or fast food, or canned drinks or ice cream or what so ever, make sure you read the label. uh, i mean, the nutrients fact. Look at the calories contains.. If it contains 400> kcal, just forget it and find something more lower in calories. you still can eat, but maybe once in a month ?? hehehe. Forget about burger, KFC, PIZZA, choc, ice cream and bla bla bla.... hahaha..sebulan sekali mungkin boleh la.. calories durang tinggi gilakkkkk ! hehehe<br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i870.photobucket.com/albums/ab267/love_feeding/Writings/b205570519.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="296" src="http://i870.photobucket.com/albums/ab267/love_feeding/Writings/b205570519.png" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<div style="text-align: center;"><b>NOW..</b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Don't forget to work out. hehe... Jog maybe ? 5 laps a day.. or maybe 10 laps ? wow.. hehe.. but really, it will help a lot ! hehe. or maybe if jogging is boring enuf for you, why don't try skipping ? or hiking up hill ? orr..aerobic ? hehe... play badminton... anything you like, but make sure it is outdoor games. hehe.. it helps burn calories in your body more faster.. hohoho</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i598.photobucket.com/albums/tt70/angresultadotcom/Free%20Stock%20Photos/1112679_88896365.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://i598.photobucket.com/albums/tt70/angresultadotcom/Free%20Stock%20Photos/1112679_88896365.jpg" width="212" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: right;"><i>OR......</i></div><div style="text-align: right;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>Drink lime juice. Helps you reduce the fat in you body. hehe. drink it everytime espcially after your meal. <b>NO SUGAR</b> okayy</i>. <i>memang la asam.. tapi tahan jak la bhaa.. hehehe (:</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i291.photobucket.com/albums/ll301/kelreeree/VALENTINES%20DAY%202011/FOOD/Margarita-Select_s4x3_lg.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="239" src="http://i291.photobucket.com/albums/ll301/kelreeree/VALENTINES%20DAY%202011/FOOD/Margarita-Select_s4x3_lg.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>or try to add with some honey ! it will be more effective.. betul... you will see after one month.. you will see the difference.. but depends on what you eat la. hehehe.. apa guna kalau minum tapi makan macam tak ingat dunia jak.. haha.. baru ada second round lagi tu. hahaha</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i> </i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><b><i>AND...</i></b></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">Find a friend.. or more. bawa dorang berdiet.. hehe.. so, bila korang terasa mau makan banyak.. adalah juga orang yang mau marah korang.. kasi kamu brainwash. hahaha..</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i175.photobucket.com/albums/w131/sherriemo/Diet/safe_image_php_thumb.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i175.photobucket.com/albums/w131/sherriemo/Diet/safe_image_php_thumb.jpg" /></a></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><u>Finally.. </u></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"> hehehe ! tu la ba yang saya buat lau mau kurus....mari kita menguruskan diri sama-sama.. haha... beli baju yang cantik-cantik nanti..gagagaga.. <b>My aim, <u>50kg</u>.<i>. i will go for it...no matter what it takes..</i></b> ^_^</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i567.photobucket.com/albums/ss115/Ballinson_bucket/WHOA_MIRROR_1280x800.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://i567.photobucket.com/albums/ss115/Ballinson_bucket/WHOA_MIRROR_1280x800.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div>VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-79760166959069546142011-05-20T10:33:00.000-07:002011-05-20T10:33:17.709-07:00Rekindle Your Spirit.<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://i617.photobucket.com/albums/tt259/paramorefan320/images.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" src="http://i617.photobucket.com/albums/tt259/paramorefan320/images.jpg" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">He listen to every prayer.</td></tr>
</tbody></table>I want to share something. Share how good my God is.. How powerful <b><i>Prayer and Faith</i></b> is<div><br />
</div><div><div class="mall_post_body" style="color: grey; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px;"><div class="mall_post_body_text" style="color: black; margin-top: 3px;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;"><b><u>Doa dan Iman</u></b></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">Saat makan siang dengan beberapa teman, salah seorang dokter bedah bertanya kepada saya," dokter, operasi terhebat apakah yang pernah Anda lakukan?"<br />
<br />
Saya bingung harus menjawab operasi yg mana. Saya sudah banyak melakukan operasi Dan semuanya menuntut keahlian, kesabaran, ketelitian yg tinggi. Kemudian saya teringat pada operasi yg dijalani oleh gadis kecil yg hanya mempunyai harapan 10% saja untuk hidup.<br />
<br />
Malam itu para perawat membawa seorang gadis kecil yg berwajah pucat masuk ke-ruang operasi. Waktu itu pikiran saya sedang dipenuhi berbagai macam persoalan yang berat. Ketika para perawat sedang mempersiapkan pembiusan, gadis kecil ini bertanya kepada saya ....<br />
<br />
"Dokter bolehkah saya menanyakan sesuatu ?"<br />
<br />
"Ya sayang, apa yg ingin kamu tanyakan?"....<br />
<br />
"Setiap malam sebelum tidur saya selalu berdoa, sekarang sebelum operasi dimulai, bolehkah saya berdoa?"......<br />
<br />
"Baiklah anak manis, engkau memang harus berdoa, jangan lupa berdoa juga untuk saya.".........<br />
<br />
Kemudian gadis kecil itu melipat kedua tangannya Dan berdoa......"<i><b>Yesus, engkau gembala yang baik, berkatilah domba kecilMu malam ini, dalam kegelapan, kiranya Engkau dekat denganku,lindungi aku sampai datangnya sinar mentari esok pagi.Dan berkati pula dokter yg akan mengoperasiku."</b></i><br />
<br />
Setelah menutup doanya gadis kecil itu berkata "sekarang saya sudah siap Dokter".<br />
<br />
Mata saya berkaca2, melihat betapa besar iman yang dimiliki gadis kecil tersebut. Malam itu sebelum saya mulai operasi, saya berdoa......<br />
<br />
"Tuhan yg baik, engkau boleh tidak membantuku dalam operasi yang lain, tapi kali ini bantulah aku untuk menyelamatkan gadis kecil ini,"<br />
<br />
kemudian saya mulai mengoperasi gadis kecil itu Dan keajaiban terjadi, dia disembuhkan.<br />
<br />
Saat berpisah Dan melepas gadis kecil itu untuk kembali ke rumah, maka saya sadar sesungguhnya sayalah " pasien" yg menjalani operasi iman. Gaya hidup gadis kecil itu mengajarkan bahwa jika Kita menyerahkan seluruh masalah & beban hidup Kita ke dalam tangan Tuhan, maka Dia akan memulihkan & menolong Kita.<br />
<br />
Doa & Iman !......<br />
Membuat Kita yakin bahwa Tuhan mampu memelihara & menjaga harapan yang Kita gantungkan kepadaNya. Doa menjadikan iman sebuah kenyataan. Doa yg dinaikkan dengan iman akan menghapuskan kekuatiran di dalam hati Kita, sehingga<i> DOA</i> itu akan mendatangkan mujizat. Tidak Ada yg mustahil bagi orang yang percaya kepadaNya, karena itu tetaplah berdoa dengan penuh kenyakinan & pengharapan di dalam nama Tuhan Yesus Kristus.<br />
<br />
<i>Yohanes 16 : 24<br />
"Sudahkah kamu berdoa dengan iman ? Mintalah maka kamu akan menerima dengan penuh sukacita.........."</i></span></div></div><form action="http://www.facebook.com/ajax/groups/mall/ufi.php" class="commentable_item autoexpand_mode" id="feedback_form_221679024509063" method="post" rel="async" style="color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px;"></form><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;"><br />
</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-small;">p/s :I share this from someone in facebook. This is really inspiring me, rekindle my spirit and makes me really believe to the power of a prayer and let me know that,<b><i> God listens</i></b> (:</span></div><div><br />
</div></div>VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-40041472492802343302011-05-20T08:46:00.000-07:002011-05-20T08:46:15.648-07:00SORRY<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="http://i265.photobucket.com/albums/ii210/cutiejess_12/quotes/imsorry.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://i265.photobucket.com/albums/ii210/cutiejess_12/quotes/imsorry.jpg" /></a></div><br />
Back to old story, I was so young when I first saw him. Everytime I saw him, my heart beats out from normal. yes ! I'm in love. I know I was to young for all this crap but hey, I'm just a human being, i have feelings too. It doesn't take only matured woman to fall in love, but a teen like me too.So young and so naive. hehe. so, i fall in love and we get together, i mean, <span style="font-size: large;"><u>couple</u></span> ;D. In that time, I'm just thinking that all my love would be only for him, just him. Day after day, time pass away, as my love grow stronger..... he broke my heart. He cheated on me. I feel very stupid. Even now i still think myself is stupid for falling in love in such young age. haha ! hmm.. I was really broken that time. I cried, YES i do. Maybe because i really love him. stupid. I was really broken when he took my love for granted while I love him with all my heart. And it is more hurting to know the he never love me the way i did. <i><b>NEVER</b></i>. our relationship is only a lie. what? He may think that my feeling to him is a joke ? right...? i told you so, I was young yet so naive... that's it. our relationship over. we never text, never call, even speak to each other. I was badly hurt by him. But it amazing huh ? how he hurts me so much and i still can love him ? yes.. i do. I even miss him everyday even I know, he never feel the same, feel the way I do. So, i made a bookmark, with his name on it. I made it in purple color. One of my favourite color. I used it in my diary. I've made a handkerchief with his name on it. Yes.. I'm crazy..crazy about him. I keep all of them and look at them..when i miss him.. until i decided to burn them. Burn all my memories.<span style="font-size: large;"> <b>JIWANG</b></span> kan ?? haha. biasala ba itu. time budak-budak. manala tau apa-apa. Yang mana jiwang, mana yang tidak jiwang. HAHA ! Common saying are right ! Time heals everything ! Years gone by, and my memories for him vanished. Even my feelings too.... Until he came back, and say, ' I'M <strike><b>SORRY</b></strike> THAT I HURT YOU LAST TIME. I WAS A BAD PERSON, RIGHT ? '. Boy.. he touched my heart. He only touched my heart, but will never steal it again. hehe. At least, he remember what he have done to me and sorry for that. I'm happy. who says sorry is the hardest part ?? hehe. well, sometimes it do. <span style="font-size: x-small;">BTW</span>, boy.. i never hate you.. I even forgive you long time ago.. and thank you for the lesson.. at least you showed me, not to trust boy that easily. hehe.. && for that, I'm happy that I'm <i><u><b>single</b></u></i> now. I don't have to rush in love. when the time is right, love will come easily (: I know, my God will give me the right person to love, the <i><b>ONE</b></i> He provided for me. All I have to do is....<i><span style="font-size: large;"> wait (:</span></i><br />
<br />
<div style="text-align: center;">once again, Boy.. <u>Thank You</u> for your <i><b>SORRY.</b></i></div>VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-82928297669265957802011-05-20T02:52:00.000-07:002011-05-20T02:52:49.361-07:00I still believe in MIRACLESthere's nothing on earth could express my feeling. no one.. not everyone from you all can feel the pain i'm having. it's like i'm having a blade that cut straight thru my heart. :'(. so, here's the plot. i'm applying for IPG, i got the interview for TESL, i went the interview snd i've done my homework before that. everything went well, i've done my interview, I swallowed my nervous, i put a smile on my face and overall, everything seems just okay until yesterday, i checked the result and it's hurt to see that my IC number was not in the list. haaaaa ~ I cried ! Cried with all my heart contented. there's a little bit regret in my heart. I asked God, 'Why ? Is my prayer still not enough for You ? ' . I was mad. I'm angry. Now i know what broken heart really is.. more painful compared when boyfie left you behind. i was hurt. i was badly hurt. But then, i come back to my God. I know, this is not His fault, and it will never be. It was mine. I pray to God. I poured everything to Him. All my despair, all my cries to Him, because i know, He's the one who knows me, understands me more than everyone around me do.<br />
He watch me from above. He knows what is my heart desire and I know, He will provide for me. Not in the way that i want it to, but in the way He want it to be. I BELIEVE in Him. I know, He has His plan on me. Last night, when i cried on my bed, i took the bible and read it and i found verses that seems speak to me.<br />
<br />
<div style="text-align: center;">" Bersukacitalah dalam PENGHARAPAN, bersabarlah dalam KESESAKAN dan bertekunlah dalam DOA"</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I know this is hard for me, because this is about my future, what i want to be, what will i be, and what would my future bring. But i have to fear no more, for i have my God, my Provider. He knows my future, He holds it in His hand, He will guide me, i know,,, and I believe, I will become a teacher someday. Even I may think this is impossible. yeah ! IT IS impossible. How could it be ? I've lost my offer for IPG, I got low pointer in matrix, very low... you might think that i just have to bury all my dream because they seems out of reach now. literally... But i will never give up.. I know i can count on my God. i still believe in MIRACLES. yes ! I still believe for He has said, ' Be anxiousfor nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God ' ( Philippians 4 : 6 ) . yahh ! I still have the hope. The HOPE in Jesus Christ. I will endure with all this thing with the strengt in Christ, let my FAITH be strong as i'm covered by endless LOVE from Him. I just have to leave all my worries now and cast all my burden to Him. Thank you Lord.. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.youtube.com/embed/tlCMc5jnYso?feature=player_embedded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div>VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-8558455683692673062011-03-24T19:56:00.000-07:002011-03-24T19:56:27.118-07:00<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaE89FSCLqljjr2lc7U-8CrbEfZtQ-SGc4IWTyH5v0IA33nesLL_aTl1o0kfzgkxC40bkwoRZbgRVw8yGnelH2qpd7sqE-mNukvmLNIjn-KpDVy2tMfbfF97k4577cZJLvCVgnIW9gPzf1/s1600/DSC01936.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaE89FSCLqljjr2lc7U-8CrbEfZtQ-SGc4IWTyH5v0IA33nesLL_aTl1o0kfzgkxC40bkwoRZbgRVw8yGnelH2qpd7sqE-mNukvmLNIjn-KpDVy2tMfbfF97k4577cZJLvCVgnIW9gPzf1/s320/DSC01936.JPG" width="240" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">the siblings</td><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><br />
</td><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><br />
</td><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><br />
</td></tr>
</tbody></table>VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4252986012721672115.post-3324114925927646292011-03-24T19:34:00.000-07:002011-03-24T19:44:55.105-07:00Greatest gift of life is the life itself (:<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqUbUqvJR5chtiw1oa5Gyj5sdobzVdy3t5zbgj10GwPkLG6rjFy7tYJzLDlaB11JayrEBJ78AD-LPMpdSgasqLIU1KmzHMzI_wiK5VduIz4Y6KvcnhV80TW398WnPBgXEPG5NP73h5k5rt/s1600/DSC03208.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqUbUqvJR5chtiw1oa5Gyj5sdobzVdy3t5zbgj10GwPkLG6rjFy7tYJzLDlaB11JayrEBJ78AD-LPMpdSgasqLIU1KmzHMzI_wiK5VduIz4Y6KvcnhV80TW398WnPBgXEPG5NP73h5k5rt/s320/DSC03208.JPG" width="240" /></a></div><br />
life is like a roller coaster.<br />
there's up and down :)<br />
hehe.. merepek huh ?? hihi...<br />
well..this going to be my 'dear diary' online I guess (:VeraSigohhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18086727296785226726noreply@blogger.com0